This last seven or so days has just plain sucked. I talked to Scott on Thursday and he said he would call after his 12 hour shift. Five days later I had not heard from him. I know that no news is good news but damn I had all sorts of thoughts invading my brain. Was he hurt or sick and did not want to notify me? Was he upset about something? Well he called finally and had went on a recon mission with the Dutch and some other US Soldiers for 5 days. He left not long after we had talked and he did not know he was requested to accompany this group. OKAY great. I am glad he is fine and I don't know why in the world I let my head spin out of control after all these years. I know the deal. No calls mean no access to a phone. He was sleeping in the sand somewhere. It was almost easier when we had no phone or internet communications in the early days. We had to rely on letters and tapes. I get worried when he does not call and it makes me nuts.
My vertical blinds (they are the fabric accordion ones) on the slider broke last night. I don't think there is a way to get it restrung. It was expensive and way past warranty. Figures. When it rains it pours. That was the little annoyance from this week. I don't have time to write about all the rest of the crap. I bought a new sprinkler and pressure washer and went to use both of them this weekend and they were broken right out of the box. Gosh I hate that. I hate having to return things anyways, but damn I never got to use either one!!!!
My quarter is winding down thank God. I still have way too much work to finish though. I am never this disorganized and scatter brained. I have such strong OCD and I always work ahead on papers etc. I cannot write in a hurry the night before. This quarter was way worse then last. The Seniors in our program told us this would be so much better this quarter. LIES I tell you. I have way too many group projects. One or two is fine, but it is so hard to mesh two learning and writing styles. We have one big project with 7 of us. We have to present a 25 min Power Point. I hope it goes well. My heart and mind is just not with it right now.
I need a break and I need some sleep. I hope the specialist I see next week can give me some hope with my arm. They say don't use it. How the heck do I not use it? My husband is deployed and the kid at college. Who is supposed to take care of the house and yard? I try to ignore the pain and swelling, but it is really getting hard. Just rambling on and on now.
I want him to come home like yesterday. I am ready for a full time life partner. Separations plain suck no matter how many times you go through it. You never really get used to it. I think each deployment has its own set of crap and things that do not go right. I should write a book about all the silly, stupid, and major things that always happen when they are gone!!!
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